Day 357

Only 8 more days. Oh my God...

My phone broke down, too, today. My technology equipment is falling apart, kinda like my body did. Oh well, I bought a new phone and I will set it up tomorrow. Tonight I had dinner in a civilized adult fashion with a friend in a restaurant. Must be an indication of regaining health. Tomorrow I will be at Annie's for Christmas Eve and Christmas Morning. I'm so glad I have this tradition that will stay in place. I need something secure and routine. I'm looking forward to just being there in a pretty place with people I love.

Meanwhile I feel like the picture taking project crashed, but I really do think I will pull it out of the hole before the end of the year. Today I let my battery completely drain. Very odd, I haven't done that since this spring, but because I've used it so infrequently this month, I was not prepared.

Anyway, I promise.... something good before the end. Merry Christmas everyone.

Day 356

Tomorrow I will try to find a way to download some of my photos. 9 more days and my equipment blows. Pretty strange.

Day 355

It's kinda crazy, but my computer has decided to stop reading photo cards. Today is the first day in almost 3 weeks that I actually took pictures and my computer has decided to stop reading the cards, no warning, just stopped.

And it is Tuesday night and another no writing night. December just got blown out of the water, period. But maybe I can write a little tonight. Maybe I have something in my heart that can be written. hmmm

I wish I'd been able to see the eclipse last night. We were way too clouded over. But I think if I had seen it it would have given me a sense of hope. I need a little sign of hope at the moment. I'm looking, don't worry, but it would have been cool to see that on the Winter Solstice at the end of this year and decade. Oh well....

Day 354: The Winter Solstice

Today is the shortest day of the year. There will also be a total eclipse of the moon tonight, and meteor showers are expected. I wish I had the energy to wake up at 3 a.m. and see it, but I have hardly enough energy to walk to my car after 5 hours of work. Yes, I returned to work today and caught up on some things. I missed the last week of classes so all my students are gone and I didn't get to congratulate them on a job well done. No, many things got left behind this month as I slept away this infection. What an odd way to end this year?



But I do have 11 more days, so maybe, keep your fingers crossed, I can do something to pull it back up. I have to admit I am in the now and not very reflective, and my creative spark is just beginning to tickle a little again. I may do it. You wait and see.

Day 352

Well, it is the week before Christmas and all through the house not a creature's been stirring, not even a mouse. Today I had enough energy to do a week's worth of dishes and realize I don't remember much of the past week. Oh I hate that feeling. I feel like I've been jipped and I've been vulnerable. Spooky. But still, I am alive. I am altered though, My state of consciousness is not back to normal and I am so very grateful for good friends and family who are watching my back .

I took the camera out with me today, but I have to tell you I am not really seeing yet. That skill of catching the important thing out of the corner of my eye is not present at the moment and what sits in its place is over sensitive eyes, which are no good for photography. So I'll download the 2 or 3 shots I took, but know I am not back yet.

I wish this illness had held out a couple weeks, although, no I don't, this way I will be healthy on Christmas Eve, which is important to me. I have been celebrating Christmas Eve with Annie, Matt and Kora and friends for at least 10 years now. It's an important day for me.

Alright, tomorrow is a new day. I still have a few shopping days left and I think I know what I want to get and it's got to keep going up from here, really!

Day 351

I am alive. I actually made a foray out into the world today someplace other than a doctor's office. The last time that was true was 10 days ago. Scary, if I didn't have such good friends it would be terrifying, but I do, so it is only scary. Yes I was scared.



I hope tomorrow starts a new life. I hope that I begin to set healthy things back into order. It is hard to just lie down and not move especially when you have the kind of imagination that I have. Tomorrow I will bring good cheer into the house and I will try to take some pictures, a little shopping,maybe, maybe not. A little singing would be good. I will take it slowly, don't worry.

Until then, sweet dreams everyone, and I truly do believe I'm back.

Day 347

The computer is still too hard for me to work on.

I'll be back soon, but not tonight.

Love you all.